I can finally see light peeking through the dark clouds that have enshrined my soul for the last 2 years. Enlightenment can be pretty dark at times, but no doubt, when you start to emerge you feel as if you’re entering a whole new world. I’ve learned that the journey can be as easy or as hard as you make it and outside influences like spouse, children, friends, and extended family can contribute to the time it takes to metamorphis into a new state of mind and that is the whole purpose of going through this transformation, to change the way you think, and the way you look at life in order to set yourself free!
For me, the most important part of my transformation was letting go of beliefs that held me hostage. At first I was angry that the things I believed in were failing me and not just failing me small, but failing me HUGE! I tried everything to hang on, but in the end I realized that the substance of those beliefs were nothing but tools used to control me and keep me in fear. And keep me in fear they did! Then one day I realized that my fears were unfounded and when I dared to step outside the box I had placed myself in, nothing catastrophic happened! Actually, quite the opposite. I was FREE! I could think things I was afraid to think before, I could say things I wanted to say but kept to myself out of fear that I’d be ridiculed. I reached a point where I could no longer live with the torment of denying my true self. I lost EVERY single one of my friends. They all walked away from me because I refused to believe what they did. At first, they tried to save my soul with threats of eternal torture and suffering if I didn’t turn back. After they had shown me all of the scriptures in their holy book warning me of an eternity in hell if I didn’t believe again, they simply stopped calling or inviting me to spend time with them. Their actions were one of the major deciding factors in my release from the bondage of organized religion. Those people will never know how thankful I am to them for their actions.
How could a god that claims to love me so much that he sent his son to die for me, threaten to torture me for all eternity if I didn’t believe the unbelievable? I realized that that isn’t love and it certainly isn’t unconditional love and “free will” was a great big lie. There is nothing free about “Love and worship me or else burn in hell for all eternity”. I could no longer commit myself to a system that orders me to believe, or else, while telling me god loves me.
The most important lesson I learned was that FEAR is a LIAR! It offers nothing but “what if’s” that never ever happen, but instead, paralyze you into submission. I plowed right through the fear, what would be would be.
I as I traveled further away from organized religion and false beliefs I was able to better see how insane it all was. Part of me was afraid of not being able to blame the results of my life on “god’s will” and the other part of me grew more determined to take responsibility for the outcome of my life and my dreams. I was no longer able to blame my inaction on “waiting for god”, he simply failed to show up and I took my destiny into my own hands. It was the single most liberating action I have EVER taken in my life. If things were going to happen to me and for me, I would be in control of them.
Rejecting a lifelong belief in something is scary, but fortunately, more and more people are waking up and realizing that religion is nothing but a lie and a man made scheme to control you. If your heart is raising doubts in your mind, listen to the the doubts! These doubts are what are going to save you from a life of bondage to a lie. Of course, you’re going to encounter much resistance from those that are too scared to listen to those doubts. They’ll confuse you and use all kinds of scriptures and tactics to scare you backwards. My advice is, avoid them as you learn.
Spend as much time as you can equipping yourself with knowledge. Research the secular history of your beliefs. Organized religion scares people away from anything that isn’t written or approved by the church. They control you by scaring you into believing that pursuing any type of information that might enlighten you is evil and cause for eternal damnation. IT’S A LIE!! LEARN ALL YOU CAN!!! The more you learn, the stronger you become. Don’t try to engage fundamentalists until you’re equipped to do so. Religion has been deceiving the masses for centuries using fear tactics and man made rules and punishments. Take your mind back and set yourself free from that prison. It may take a while, but I promise, once the first seeds of doubt have taken root, there is no turning back. You’ll see.
I’m here for you anytime you need me. Don’t hesitate to reach out to me. I’ll help you through.
Note: If you’re a believer and think anything you say will change my mind or that threats of hell will influence me, you’re wasting your time. Comments from religious people will be deleted and those making them will be banned.
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